OSHORUAH

I would like to share a little background history on how I arrived on the spiritual path that I am on, why I choose to offer sessions with others and why I have chosen the title, ‘Spiritual Evolution Consultant’.

Perhaps the biggest motivation/catalyst on my life path has come through losing my religion and learning to find faith in my own spiritual journey of awakening. The religion that I left, set me on the road of discipline and determination to pursue and develop the spiritual aspects of my human existence. It gave me an idealistic vision of human life on Earth, awareness of other dimensions and communications with consciousness beyond the physical realm, a broad spectrum of moral choices and a deep history of stories of the human struggle with developing the spiritual ‘self’. I am grateful for this religion of my youth, for its role in helping me become who I am today. I no longer promote or support any religion. I wholeheartedly believe in the spiritual development of every human being and our responsibility to each other as one human family. I believe we must all pursue our own unfolding/awakening and that ultimately it will be a personal path and the beauty of our spiritual ‘flowering’ will be evident by the devotion we put into it. While respecting the personal beliefs of each individual, I encourage everyone to keep growing, building upon and expanding your worldview to see where it meets up with your global family. For truly our beliefs create the world we live in.

I’ll begin my story at the age of three, when my mother left my father with my older brother and I, and bravely chose to raise us on her own. She had recently joined the faith of the Jehovah’s Witnesses, after being raised Catholic by her parents, and proceeded to wholeheartedly pursue and teach this religion to my brother and I. And so it was, through this very particular lens, that I was taught the Bible, the gospels and teachings of the Christ and the old prophets and histories of the Israelites, the pre-histories and Origin stories of humans. I was taught that there were many strict behaviours required of me, many things to learn, perform and obey to be ‘approved of’ and ‘worthy of’ the life given to me by this Creator God. I was taught that I was special and privileged to be raised in this community of believers that referred to their collection of teachings, unabashedly as “The Truth”. As such, I had duties and responsibilities towards my community, among which were protecting the purity of it by not diluting or polluting it with too much outside influence or friendship with ‘non-believers’. As a young boy who loved his mother and the spark of life and joy within me, I wanted to do everything within my power to be ‘good’ and have God’s approval. I learned and studied and did my best to be obedient. For Jehovah’s Witnesses, this is a life long pursuit that includes: meetings with your local congregation three times a week, daily bible reading, weekly bible study and research, monthly participation in door to door preaching and teaching, three annual larger gatherings of multi-day lecture and study intensives, reading of the two bi-monthly journals of ‘The Watchtower’ and ‘Awake!’ Magazines and …the list could go on! I feel myself getting exhausted and overwhelmed at just how controlling and dominating that religion was of every aspect of my life. The moral code was strict; no sex outside of marriage. Despite all of this, or maybe because of all of this, I believed. I excelled, I studied, I learned, I preached and taught my faith to others. At the tender age of thirteen, I chose to make a public commitment to the Jehovah’s Witness faith through a water baptism and vow to dedicate my life to God. In my later teens, for two consecutive years, I volunteered to become a ‘Pioneer’, a term the religion used for people devoting between 60-90 hours a month in the door to door ministry and conducting of private home bible studies with the public. At the age of twenty, I married my girlfriend(age 18), and at the time I was a virgin, in obedience to my faith. I continued to take on more responsibilities, including public speaking and teaching within the congregation.

And then…the lightning strike of change began! My wife of four years, told me she was leaving me and the religion of our youth. I was heartbroken, devastated and soon thereafter, divorced. I fell into a depression that my spiritual community was unable to help me out of. I felt betrayed by my life of obedience and loyalty to the organization of my religion that taught and supported this belief in the purity of marriage. The floor had fallen out from underneath me. My love for my wife and for God were both true in my inner heart but the organizations and institutions around them had suddenly cracked and no longer seemed real or necessary to me anymore. Feeling ashamed for and suppressing my sexual desires as a teenager was unbearable and this huge sacrifice had been placed on the altar of my virgin marriage. Would it not have been better for my girlfriend and I to explore our love and go our separate ways, then place the weight of lifelong commitment on our shoulders so that we could finally be free of guilt to explore our natural sexual expressions? These thoughts and feelings plagued me and I was unable to find comfort from the deep psychological wounds I had suffered. This would be the beginning of me peeling open many layers of other life wounds that lay deeper in my soul, going unnoticed through years of religious suppression and denial. I wrote poetry of introspection and traveled solo to other countries seeking solace and new perspective. Four years later at the age of 28, before my head was ready, my heart was. I fell in love with a woman who was not one of Jehovah’s Witnesses and my relationship with her quickly brought me into conflict with my baptismal vows and I was disfellowshipped (excommunicated) from my faith. Even though everything was feeling very right, I was struggling to make logical sense of all of these huge life changes happening to me. In retrospect, astrologically I had just entered my Saturn Return in the sign of Leo. I was learning how to become my own sovereign and discover what loyalty to truth and love looked like. Huge tests were before me. My mother and my brother were caught between their familial ties and their baptismal vows to the Jehovah’s Witnesses and felt that after my ‘disfellowshipping’, they could no longer (in good conscience) speak with me. This is a common teaching and understanding among Jehovah’s Witnesses and therefore meant that I lost contact with all of my friends and ‘spiritual’ family of my youth. For the next three years, I stood in the proverbial doorway, lingering, wondering if my guilt was calling me back to “the truth” of all that I had ever known or if this new feeling, bubbling up within my heart was guiding me, instinctually into the yet unknown path of awakening to the truth of who and what I really am! 

I chose to follow that call. The voice within me said that there exist a faith that pre-dates the written word. It said that I can know the truth of my creator through searching my own heart and following the roots of consciousness back to the Source. That without holy text, I can be in happy communion and right relation with ‘All That Is’. I have spent the last eighteen years in wholehearted pursuit of seeking this. It is what some call the mystical path, direct experience of the divine. I also choose the experiential or tantric path, learning balance through touching and meeting life, not withdrawing away from it. I see the spiritual path of being a human being on the Earth, right now, and the great work we have in coming together as one human family. 

My curiosity has taken me down many spiritual paths including; yoga, meditation, sacred sexuality, Kashmiri Shaivism, and more recently Anthroposophy. I have studied the mythologies and participated in the cultures of Polynesia, Native America, Inca, Quechua, Wixarika and Mexica. I continue to learn from the plant medicines of Ayahuasca, Peyote, Wachuma and Mushrooms. I have awakened to the living consciousness of Source all around us, inside us. Hearing Source speak to us, through us, as us! Everything visible being a manifestation and expression of Source speaking to us in a most direct and honest language. 

In my late twenties, a symbol came to me that I began to draw everywhere to remind myself to stay true to my inner voice, my calling, my spiritual path. I gave the symbol the name, ‘Blood Water Road’.

It represented my life walk on this earth, the choices I made that either brought me closer to my truth or further from it. In the following years, two more symbols came to me that I merged together with the first and gave it the new name of Oshoruah. 

I made this name up from two different languages, creating the meaning of, ‘root of my spirit’ or my ‘soul’s truth’. This symbol became a representation of both my living spirit and my life path. Some time later, I legally changed my name to Shane Oshoruah Alexander. I call my website, Oshoruah.com and the talks I have with people, Oshoruah Sessions, in an attempt to help people arrive at their own soul’s truth.

I was born on November 5, 1976, in the Sun sign of Scorpio, the Moon sign of Taurus and the Rising sign of Gemini. My astrology speaks of my passion for exploring the depths of the human soul and communicating these truths to others to effect powerful social change. I was born for this work and it is my gift and honour to offer this back to my greater human family in the best way that I can. There are many ways that I could tell the story of my life. In my teens, I walked the edges of my own sanity and flirted with suicidal thoughts. I have known deep sadness, depression and despair. These experiences have given me awareness of the subtle energies at work in my own field and help me to see them in others. I don’t claim to have seen it all or have the wisdom to ‘solve’ every problem. What I am saying is that I have the willingness to continue to peer deeper into my own shadows and for those of you who have the desire to grow and heal, I will walk with you in yours. The human heart is a beautiful and delicate instrument. I approach it’s unfolding humbly, cautiously and with the utmost respect.

What I am creating through my website is a sacred place for the magic to happen. It has been my experience, that healing never happens in only one direction. Life flows in one continuance circle and we cannot be in the presence of healing without being healed ourselves. Often, the words I speak to others, are the very things I needed to hear myself and the truths that others speak, effect changes in me. In a quiet, private space I can reflect back to you the dissonance between your words (the personal imagining of yourself) and the vibration of your heart and energy body. When you ask in sincerity, your higher self will allow me to speak in its behalf and become a cosmic mirror that channels your truth back to you. When we honour and dignify these subtle voices of our soul by offering to listen to them with love, they will speak! When we bring the light of consciousness to our shadows, when we integrate neglected aspects of ourselves, we feel the confidence of wholeness and unlock new potentials of our creativity.

Why do I offer these sessions to others? Most simply put, because I want to! I want this clarity and awakening for myself and for the planet. I have lived the first 28 years of my life inside the tight grip of a religious thought construct. I have freed myself from it and have experienced a death and rebirth of my own faith. I wish to free spirituality from religion and come to know it again as a natural and beautiful part of just being a human being. I see our greater world society of governments, religions and corporations as similar powerful thought constructs that tempt us to give away our power and interfere with our own direct connection with Source and our ability to govern our sovereignty responsibly.

I am approaching the middle of my life, and as I look out into mainstream culture, I do not see the truth of my heart reflected back to me. When I go beyond surface conversations with others, I find that many others share the same feelings and desires for our world that I do but we have yet to create it on the outside. It is my intention to help start the conversations that address the deeper issues at play, to support the expression of these truths and to nurture the global social change necessary. I do not like the options in front of me and I wish to create new ones for the generations coming behind me.

It is not hard to see some of the self destructive patterns present in the human species in this rapidly changing world we are living in. We are powerful creators! Awareness of our unhealthy choices gives us an opportunity to start creating in new directions. I chose the title, “Spiritual Evolution Consultant” to address the major life changes that come with our “awakenings’ and to always honor your sovereignty. I offer my time and energy as a friend, a consultant, a mirror to reflect the truth of your divinity back to you. May the change we create reflect the love we believe in!